Rushed off to catch harry potter at lot 1 after sch ends. The show getting more and more complicated series after series, guess i gonna read the book to know more about the story, as there's kinda a lot of content missing inside the movie. I can't really understand whats going on at the last part after Voldermort vanished, and at that stage i was alrdy half aslp. Really lacking of slp these days. Anyway, i won't dare to slp while standing on a crowded train anymore, kept losing balance of myself so many times, making myself look so stupid and unglam on the train.

Is it really that hard for people to take initiative?
Shy is just an excuse.

Moments of the 150th.

so come on, tell me.

So today must be another dramatic day i supposed. Religion brought in again this time, is it really that strong to break people apart? Makes me wonder.

The econs class was so noisy and unproductive even though i was one of the negative externalities involved. Anyway i also couln't concentrate in the class anyway as my mind was fighting half of the battle trying to stay awake. After the scoldings, I felt like i'm back during the secondary school days when teacher's start scolding and worrying for us while we were still playing and fooling around in those days. At this age where we should be more mature and sensible, getting a scolding at this age is so shameful.

Hist content quiz tml, and i can't bring myself to get up and study. Somehow my eyes feel painful when i strained it to read the words on the notes.

Yes! I'll be catching Harry Potter tml after wanting to watch it for so long. I'm not excited because i gotta catch that movie, I'm smiling coz i am able to watch with someone special. =)

I can see so many things ahead of me.

so come on, tell me.

so come on, tell me.

Back from another long day. It was just like last week, went to the lib to do some homeworks and then went out to spend the time together. I seem to have started this esplanade lib trend, and now people in my class are there to study since then. Anyway we watched the 2nd ndp fireworks tgt today, it's much nicer and the shooting is longer compared to last week, but i guess there won't be another time during the 9th Aug.
Kept bumping into so many familiar faces today, it's such a conincidence to as the place was seriously so crowded today compared to last week.

Finally, for such long, i finally managed to put back the unhappiness behind me today, suddenly i felt so relieved now. Wanted to isolate myself, but i guess i wouldn't be able to get over it without you. The pain and the ups-and-downs i been thru this week, is finally over.

I need you.

so come on, tell me.

Is stress coming over me? Or am i still dreaming?

I'm still trying hard to stop myself from these mood swings.

Guess i shouldn't be selfish and interfere with people's life to do what they want for my sake. Since these are the things what they really want to do, why wanna spare a thought for my feelings? It's not like they can do anything though if i say how upset i am, coz these things really matters to them. As long as they are happy with what they are doing now, i'm really fine with it. Focus Nicholas, I need to priortise my things too. May I will just leave things alone and not pinning too much hopes on things that i can't seem to reach out for.

I finally knew how important priorities are.
I shall treasure whats ahead of me and leave the rest alone.

The 200th post.

so come on, tell me.

Went for some geo talk at njc during the afternoon. Made quite a nuisance over there, eating food while listening to the lectuer talking, and promoting the new jj helmet trend to the rest of the jc schools, haha. Anyway the talk was kinda bored and not that useful as what the lectuerer taught was all what we had studied during our sch, and i thought i was suppose to be like some extra knowledge or case studies about the difference rivers that maybe prompted myself to go. Good thing that the lecture ended quite early.

Went to bt timah foos centre for some "high-tea" as initiated by freddy. But ended up no one had the appetite to eat anything, lol. Felt so bad that I had to leave halfway thru as i was worried for her, though i always have my wonderful classmates whom understands me. =) After rushing over to np, felt so weird as i realised as i was wearing my uni, and ppl keep looking at me as if i'm some specimen, but can't be bothered anyway. Went back home after leaving redhill, hope she felt happy that day.

so come on, tell me.

Sch is making me tired and tired each day, perhaps more stressful. Been spending too much money during sch these days on food, i suppose i should cut down my spending on food again and go on some budget savings. One important reason is because...

I have been pended to PES A! Though in the letter it did not stated my medical results, there must be something wrg with the CMPB to put such a fat me inside the A category, in which i have not been exercising for around 4 mths alrdy, ok other than the olympic dream run. I should have been just dumped to PES E.

My mood has been swinging frequently these days. I hate myself to lose my temper but i can't seem to control myself. After so long i'm too afraid to hear the same thing again and again. It just making me goes crazy but i can't seem to help myself. I shall learn not to pinned myself fully on something which may not happen anymore.

The smile was just there for a second.

so come on, tell me.

Its suppose to be a usual early mon but now the aftn is preoccupied with extra tutorials. Days are getting so nearer each day and i don't think i'm gear up for the coming exams. Wonder will i able to overcome all the hurdles i see just a few metres ahead of me.

Got held back a bit in econs today, as many of us kept disrupting the lesson. So i went back home with the usuals. Though they were all my friends, i could feel that i was shining very brightly between the two pairs, everyone was talking to their own partner and i felt lyk wriggling myself out and disappear out of their existence. But nevertheless, it's just my thought, and i won't be so cruel to do that.

My hw for today is piling up really too fast, i know i can't afford to waste anymore time talking on my phone. Maybe i should off my phone and chuck it aside one day, but wonder if i could do that.

Would you feel the pain if you aint a good shooter?

so come on, tell me.

Went to hui's house along with the other "7" to watch exorcist together. The movie effects wasn't quite clear alrdy, and the storyline is kinda messy, the others were making lots of noises and screaming while there's some who kept laughing, and there i was trying to understand what is movie is about. Anyway the movie was not scary was thought to be, maybe because it was the screaming and the laughters around.

Took another online profile test. And my results shown was ISTP, which was the same when i took the profiling test in JJ few days ago. And I am an extreme introvert, slightly expressed senser, slightly expressed thinker and a moderate perciever.

Unmotivated.

so come on, tell me.

Went to esplanade lib in the early aftn for my 1st start to "study". Erm, maybe it was the wrg day to come as there is ndp rehearsal going on, and there are other events going on in the lib. Anyway today was very unproductive, i only finish reading an EOS lecture notes. But anyway the time spent was so nice and we got to see the march in parade and the fireworks. How memorable, bleh.

Seems that there are always things that is going on with me and i just can't explain or express myself out. Maybe i am an extreme introverted, the profiling test was right. But i hope that everything just soon be alright as i don't want people to wry for me.

Emo-li-cious.

Stay, don't move, i'm still here.

so come on, tell me.

20th July 2007.


The emotionally terrible day for the 06A01. Maybe things turned out just happened and flew past so quickly. It's the day where everything was just not right and almost everyone is emotionally disturbed and hurted. Even I, and shown out the weakest part of myself in front of them. It's really a terrible day. Things may seem to be sorted out, but is there still a problem deep inside part of us? Even me myself don't even know, I have been so troubled with problems these days. Maybe "nasty" just can't go along with my character. Of all days in jc life why must it happened during this period? It's such a terrible experience. After all i didn't know what was going on with the class when i'm away. I hope it never comes back again, and there will be happy ending for the 06A01s.

After 1pm, chionged to donut factory with jerome and han, the que was kinda short this time at suntec, it took around 1.5 hr to get to the donuts. But still i find it not that worth it to que for the donuts, as there's still as many close substitutes which are quite nice too.

Stay strong.

so come on, tell me.

Each day passes and i'm feeling more and more tired each day. People are just getting more and more weird each day, just unexplainable, and i hope i'm the one paranoid. For the past few days, been having long chats with my classmates, somehow so many things happened in a while... I feel like taking a break.

On the side note, what does people meant by personal opinions? Blog anything that they likes without thinking about the consequences? Posting out sensitive issues about talks that were supposedly only confined to a certain party? If these ppl don't want people to intrude in their personal opinions, get a personal diary or blog then.


So many things that i had close one eye on.
But everyone has their limit.
I'm not your anger machine to vent on.
And you have been stepping over me all the while.
If it's becoz i'm too nice among the rest
Then i shall turn NASTY.

so come on, tell me.

Darn, stress level is piling up as the major exams are getting nearer. I'm still not moving anywhere yet.
Can't believe andrew is one of the nominees for the hunk search organized by some mediacorp, just can't stop laughing when i saw the link, and the same sentiment applies to all the 4e3s ppl too.

Kinda got addicted to it.

so come on, tell me.

Woke up so early to reach toa payoh at 9. Thought i would be some grand events will mediacorp and tv stars coming, but turns up it is just like a normal JJ event. They could have held it at JJ lahz, then people wouldn't need to travel so far. Ok not JJ, if the event is really held there then many people would have fallen as the track has not much friction. And the attendence was so little, yet they are aiming like 100k laps within a day, it's just too ambitious.

Thought that we would be completing just five rounds, as we thought it will be the laps that we pledged for. Turns out that it's just free run, so we tried to complete the laps as much as we could, till the pt that we have completed 20+ laps, when me and zhi liang decided to go all out for 50 rounds to achieve the gold medal, since it will be the last achieve we will be doing in JJ, and i need to cut off my fats badly. So me and zhiliang started speeding up our pace, till the point where it was around 35th lap when i started to feel some cramps on my leg. But for some unknown reason, i just kept preservere and continue till the point that i really had to take a rest at 40th lap. And when i climbed the stairs, my legs just cramped and lost all strength.

I know that esther's nice thoughts wanted me to stop for the sake of my legs, but i just want to finished the laps as i'm so near in reaching it. Sorry if i hurt you. But thanks jerome, esther, huix2,hwee ying and zhiliang for encouraging me to move on, and i have finally done it. =)

Everything ended around 3.30pm, and we were famished and tired as we didn't had lunch and some even breakfast. Went to KFC where the guys shared the family meal in pairs, while the girls ate a lot too. The guys thought they could finished their meal which was for 2 pax each, but end up their couldn't finish everything and had to pass some for the girls, rofl. And the mrt has no seats while we are badly in needed in seats.

And now i'm back with sun burnt all over, my body feels so hot and stuffy that i can't slp, my legs too tired to walk and move. How wonderful is there's no sch tml.

so come on, tell me.

Went out with shawn to chill at bt timah. Thought there would be some tables during the night, but turned out that Mambo was full, and we had to walk all the way to Century to play though we had no choice. Its really a bad place to play in as they allow people whom are under 16. Seriously its been months since i played pool and my skills are darn rusty, and we took ard 30 mins to finish a game. Got so sick and left after playing 3 games, kept missing the holes. Had supper along the bt timah road, and rush back to catch bus 67 back. The bus seriously stinks.

You are not alone.

so come on, tell me.

so come on, tell me.

Came back home early this tym again. Everyone is gg out while i'm de only one rotting at home. So i'm currently playing ragnarok with zhiliang at home, bleh. The game is getting even boring each day though, but i suppose this will be the best way to kill my time. Just got 200 pounds beauty vcd from darryl, so i still have something to watch though.

This weekend i suppose i won't be going out other than the olympic dream. Just realised that i have something on during sunday too but i hope i can ammend it to another day... While this boring weekend i shall hibernate myself in my small little room.

Sian, sian, sian.

so come on, tell me.

Got back out report progress card today. Wonder what makes the whole class distracted that we weren't even listening to Ms Tan while she's trying hard to teach and while we are shouting and playing around. I was also part of the contributing factor, as i was smsing and talking all along. Perhaps she may feel that we are the worse class that she taught. In addition shes even our civics tutor, she shouldn't deserve the kind of attitude and behaviour from us. We feel so apolegetic. Sorry.

Went to catch transformers at lot 1. The storyline was quite messy and i don't quite understand the story. Perhaps I'm kinda tired during the show, but all i see was the robots fighting each other and i don't even know which robots are gd and which are evil. But overall, it's nice, it's an action movie after all. Haha.

Anyway, i shouldn't be online at this hr, was planning to slp earlier today. But didn't realised that the history source based was so hard and i need to spent more time cracking my brains and reading thru the notes. And now, i don't feel like slping at this moment.

...

so come on, tell me.

Days seems even scary when prelims are coming near each time. Some may feel that they don't have enough break back from the common test. Well, this is the poor life of the jc students, mugging and struggling hard to squeeze into the uni. Perhpas this is the reality, the world is so cruel. How i wish if utopia exists. Ok enough of blabbering nonsense, i shall stop here.

Time always seem to be the root of all problems between.

so come on, tell me.

Argh, couldn't get started at my hist even at this time, was getting myself engaged on the phone with so many ppl one after another. And as expected i will be slping very "early" again this time to rush thru my work. I find it so funny, people are asking me tips and strategies of how to survive with 3+ hrs of slp everyday. I am a human too, of coz i need to slp, thats why i take a small nap first sometimes. I'm used to slping late in secondary sch days, or maybe it's is what DSS people are. And this is shown in my msn messenger as almost all of the jjcians are offline when it's 2am. So drink loads of coffee if you ppl want to slp up late, haha.

Asdasd.

so come on, tell me.

Live Earth today, so its green day! And it's 07/07/07, and as u walk by town u can see many cars parked outside hotels for married couples.. But as usual, the whole town is still buzzling with people, you get to see the pace of life is moving faster and faster in Singapore. I suppose that the increase in 2% GST doesn't affects Singaporeans from shopping and buying stuffs. GSS is still on, and the price is just a slight increase of around 1 buck, unless buying cars or house then it is another diff story.

The sweet, sweeter and SWEETEST.

so come on, tell me.

2 boring lessons in sch, 2 papers returned back to us. Yes, finally at last, i managed to passed my GP for this year! Great. Its a grade jump from S to a D. Anyway well done to my class for having 100% passes for GP, woot! The int. hist ppr was the more disappointing one, the paper which i pinned the most hope on, yet the results were not what i expected. Well, at least overall my hist grade is acceptable, considering that i only start studying that sub on the day before the ppr.

Huix2 and I were being nice to esther by accompanying her till 4.30 while she had her dental extract. I was being exploited by esther relentlessly, and poor huix2 was being bullied by her, lol.

Something random made by the sayings of KSM,

Does the mac deliveryman carry a gun around?
Or perhaps hes carrying a water pistol inside.

Well, no more of this nonsense, i'm off.

I hate the feeling. Get lost.

so come on, tell me.

Been training myself not to slp in the afternoon these days, as my exams coming this yr are usually on the afternoon, can't afford to lose my strength and stamina during that period. This also means that i have even lesser time to slp nowadays, and i need to learn to slp early. But the more earlier i slp, i feel even lethargic. Just not used to slping early, used to remember that i slpt at 4am everyday during my secondary sch life..

Got back my econs paper, kinda badly done, but at least i managed to pass my econs this time. Kinda a small achievement for me coz i made a slight improvement, haha. Went for maths tutorial today, and it was a freaking waste of my time, could have went home to play RO or something.. Waste so much time waiting for latecomers, and then going thru the formulaes... i could have went home and read myself. And the stupid thing is that there was a sch blackout near the end of the tut and we ended early. LOL. Don't think i wanna come back anymore.

I want back the past it used to be.

so come on, tell me.

I suppose this should be the longest day i gonna stay in sch for this week, and i am quite tired and lethargic after coming back home in the night. Gotten back the 2nd paper for this week.. the result is neither great nor bad, just average, however i know the the rest of my papers will gotten be rotten marks...

Had pepper's lunch for dinner in Central. How careless of me, didn't realised that ala carte for steak also excluded white rice other than the drink. And when i went to get a bowl of rice, it's was so shocking that the plain bowl of rice cost $1.50. Never been scammed before for buying such an expensive plain rice. I thought that at least the rice would go beyond 50 cents, which is what some hotels are charging... And to my dismay, this is crap. Heck care, shouldn't let this spoil my mood anyway, take it as i am doing a "charity".

Better get some slp now before i fall aslp in tml's lecture...

Sweet 4.

so come on, tell me.

Another start of the week, another new day day for me tml. Just finished doing all my HRC and the achievements remarks. Its so hard and brain draining to backtrack all the past events and contributions and i'm so glad that i finally get this stupid thing over with.

Tml will be a great.

Some actions can't be explained by words.

so come on, tell me.

Ok i really had a long break over this week. Haven't been touching anything and slacking the whole day. Went out to town for a chill with rq and mh this aftn. I know i'm blur and i don't notice ppl who are around me, coz i only look straight, haha. Was kinda suan for my retarded actions lahz, and i may have missed a lot of things around me too. I was even blamed by someone for daoing him in town while he was shouting my name all over. Sorry, i would have replied you if i knew you were around.

Feels like getting a new change, jap rock band is so cool, but jap cds are so many times ex compared to english cds.

You are not being ignored.

so come on, tell me.

Well, i guess now GST have been officially raised to 7% now. Decided not to get my wallet anymore, coz i know i have been spending too much these days, though i may be bought a little. The whole city were so crowded just now, so many ppl were bz doing their last min shopping and grabbing whatever stuffs they can buy... well even gab were starting to splurge for no reason. Ok enough of GSS sales btw, gonna start saving money for the yr-end, coz there's still prom night... i hope i can find a job by then...

so come on, tell me.