One's tolerance is just a limited capacity. Its just like a cup of water, once the brim is full, it' full, and when anything more is added in it, it's over. I swear that whatever ytd was just the brim, and i just blow up when i's further agitated. Yes, it's a hard one this time, whatever things that has accumulated inside me for the past mths, it's just blows up like a bomb.

Yes, i admitted that it was just an act of rashness and deep frustration made me typed those stuffs ytd. But no matter how many things that person did, i should had kept it personal.

Right and wrong. I am not dictating an answer for what i give. But overall, it's all up to the mass to judge me whether i'm right or wrong. I just wanna give myself and explanation for what i did all the time, and i didn't concluded that what i say was rite. I don't even have the ability to force people to believe what i say in the actual fact for i'm just not the person with that character.

Things that had happened around me all the time in sch, i chose to pretend nth had happened. The hurtful feeling that that stabbed right deep into my heart, i chose to remain silent. I knew i was not as strong as than the rest, even though i remain strong in the faces of people, yet inside it's bleeding. I broke down sometimes, and some of them had seen it that time.

Sometimes i really wanna be a tyrant and instill fear inside the rest of the people, so that they can't even have the chance to retaliate, but in reality, but in the actual fact i'm just at the opposite end. People keep telling me that in reality, the world is cruel and one must be harsh so that people will not take advantage of you. I know, but how the hell am i gonna do it when i just can't do it.

I have my own right to laugh at what my friends made or commented, but seems that i'm always the one being targeted among ALL of the people because i was claimed to have that evil laugh. Weird, haha. Can't i have the right to laugh at what my friends had say? I may be involved or even a part of it, or a catalyst to it, but why me? Because i'm yr close friend? Or is it i'm just simply nice to be bullied? I don't wanna give an answer for myself or forcing anyone an answer, for people who know me know it.

I have been named an exfriend ytd, and i had to pretend that nth had happened ytd. How can i just take it lying down? Or all along i have not been taken as a friend for? I'm a true fake after all. Does a close friend had to shoulder all the laughter and blames for whatever that happened in sch? Or am i just yr venting machine after all.

Perhaps i don't really understand you after all. It's true that you told me quite a lot of things. But things told by you were just merely what happened during yr days of life, it's pretty vague. There's more to know about someone deep down inside that makes people so complicated and emo, doing mood swings this and that, and seriously i don't know anything. And for me, i'm an pure introvert.

Misunderstood all this while.

so come on, tell me.