Went out wif pig siew and edmund today. Edmund was so mad coz me and siew were so late and we made him made quite awhile. But after that everything was ok and we had an eating spree. Went Häagen-Dazs for ice-cream and then NY for dinner. It's so sinful today with the amount of food i ate today. Spent quite a lot too, so broke.

so come on, tell me.

Wah, it's damn fricking bored at home. I think i'm just gonna waste today's whole day. EFFF.

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Wahaha, my blog is officially one year now!
Thats pathetic though, when people were lyk alrdy blogging for years!

Gotten back my GP and Maths pprs. Terribly disappointing. I have deproved at least a grade and above. Well, maths is even utterly disappointing. I know my H2 papers are gonna be worse, i don't wish to face it, i know i've done badly. So lost.

Gotten my new timetable. Even though the lesson schedule is less tighter and there's no more lecture, i think it's gonna be hard on me over the next few weeks.

My worst fear.

so come on, tell me.

Found something interesting on the internet.

It's not done by me! Just wanna share.
Here goes...

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It's rare that i woke up at 1pm this time. Gotta rush and get out coz it's getting late. For the sixth movie of the year i watch the "Rogue Assasin". The movie is quite cool, haha guess i picked a movie this time that i felt that i didn't waste my money on.

It's been a long time since i can spent my time going out like this. Wonder when will there be another day. This day just feels like Saturday, but too bad it's only Wed. There's school tml. Shrugs.

I like this.

so come on, tell me.

Yeah, finally after all the crap mugging, everything is over. Or not, A levels are still not yet over. At least everyone has managed to complete the 2nd last lap and gonna get prepared for the final lap soon.
Haha, been thinking of the past 6 weeks that i have been doing. I suppose it was kinda stress and intenese everyday and i am glad that i still managed to survive till now by resting for 3-4 hrs a day. Even though i was tired during my paper, at least i managed to complete something lah, though the paper suck.

06A01 went to Ms Chan's house ytd. Haha, her baby was cute la, though she kept crying and crying. Watch apoclypto together, and the show is so damn gross and disgusting, showing how brutal the natives are during the civilization regimes. Almost felt like vomiting out after seeing all the horrified scenes. Yes, it's full attendence for class gathering again.

Damn, why sch wanna resume on thur, don't ppl like need a break? They should know that our Sept holiday was lyk... hell load of shit for us. Or maybe i should just be appreciative enough that at least i have a break tml while some don't...

Happy birthday dad!

Yet to find a solution.

so come on, tell me.

Went to esp lib alone to study sea hist which i haven been touching for at least 3 weeks. It's just only 3 weeks and i realised that how easily thing can be forgotten. Anyway there were 2 rj ppl sitting beside me at both of my side, and i feel so inferior somehow. But he should have ask me how to find the deadweight loss in the externality diagram la, at least i know something that he dono.. wahahah. Things were getting anywhere better when i'm out alone too. My mind tends to get drift off easily. And it's really not a day to study today, just can't fricking study.

Oh, i realised that my handwriting is really getting from bad to worse.

Am i special?

so come on, tell me.

Human geo was much better today. It was still do-able, i see a path guiding me way out of this bloody mess. Hope this paper will offset the defeated physical geo ppr.

Catching up on my slpless nites. Gonna have the whole weekend "free", kinda left only SEA hist and econs case study which everyone alrdy studied for the paper 2 lahz. Dono why they can't put on dates which are close together too, and now have to refresh my memory after all the intense reading from the rest of the subjects.

Wonder what has really happened to me these days. I suppose the stress and fatigue that i got that i start to lose my own-self these days. The feeling is that you don't wanna care about anything and u wan some peace and quiet alone without anyone. But thats not the reality cause there is always someone.

Went out the esplanade to chill after that. So dead back home now. Whee.

Imperfections.

so come on, tell me.

Lifehouse - Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

so come on, tell me.

History sucks.

so come on, tell me.

Bad day.

Went to esplanade lib with shawn. But he woke up late so he went there 1st. I went to the shelves to read a magazine and ppl took my seats away. Then there came loads of y*lam who came to the library to "study", making lots of noises and blasting their earpieces and talk talk talk non stop. A few of them start blasting music and like no one even care. The librarians didn't even do anything to maintain the library's quietness, other then playing on the speaker "Dear reader, help us make this place a condusive place for learning, staffs will ask readers who do no cooperate...." All nonsense. The whole library was like a playground for those ppl, even the volin and piano feels so irritating.

I just dono that i have a tendency to laugh for everything single thing or not. But at least there's someone who laugh with me inside the library. So many funny ppl in the library, although some were not but still we made it funny. Inside the library, u hear ppl blasting music and laughing, ppl singing, humming, snapping while hearing the music on the side bench, ppl talking in the library on phone LOUDLY (although i did talk on the phone in the lib), ppl who was hearing music on the headphone and someone taps him and there he goes "WHAT?" , ppl whom didn't on their silent mode and there's goes phone ringing on some funny ringtone.. And i laughed when i hear the ringtone and the auntie kp me for laughing. (What's wrg with laughing, if she don't want me to laugh then she should have on silent mode and set a better ringtone.) I had a heated argument with her in the end. The librarian was laughed at me wif her funny expression asking me why i laugh that auntie. Moron, i won't want to do that, but too bad she stepped on my toe.

But thing gradually start getting better from the evening. PEACE.

salohcin.
Thats me.

so come on, tell me.

Prelims.
Setback after setback, this is getting even trumatising. I hope all these papers won't come out for the As, i really gonna flunk it all. It's not like i never put in effort at all. What makes ppl feel more demoralise is that there isn't even improvement, or rather you have deprove after putting your effort in proparing for the prelims. It's not the best i can do, but at least i have tried...

Went off to town and vivo to have a chill. At least gets me much better for now. No mood to study anyway even if i reach home.

FAT! =S

so come on, tell me.

It's maths exam tml. Well everyone should be slping by now, and i am busying killing a lizard that is crawling under my bed. The poor lizard try to act dead but it's stupid to realised that humans can't be fooled. And there goes the lizard which i broke it's body into half with a newspaper on my hand. Guess i'm gonna have a hard time clearing up the mess on my bed now. It's so awfully disgusting.

Awkard.

so come on, tell me.

Today's the day man.
Doomsday.

All the best for prelims!

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2 more days to prelims! Hurray.
Crack. Crab. Crap.

Went to esplanade wif shawn today, though it's much productive compared to sch, there were also much distractions around. And the weather is good too, the sun was nice today and we didn't had sunlight glaring at us. Out of sudden she pop out and suprise me and pass me the stuffs she got from hk. Since then i had the very strong instinct that i gonna lose it, but still i didn't put it in my bag coz there's no space and i don't wanna get the food crushed. And indeed i lost it at foodcourt after i had my dinner. Maybe partly was that i was too tired and stress to notice about my belongings, even though the stuffs was on the same chair as my bag. Argh, so pek chek.

But still, the person should not have took it away coz it doesn't belong to them.
I gonna kill the b*stard who took away my stuffs. FUCK.

Careless me.

so come on, tell me.

Didn't have the time or strength to blog nowadays, thx to the stupid unproductive mugging these days. Studying in various environments just don't work for me. My own sweet home still seems to be the best, just that it has an irritating bed which makes me feels so tempted to lie on it and make me fall aslp. Prelims are just gonna hit me bad, I have way lots of topics to go thru, not to mentioned that stuffs that i have been forgetting. The piles of notes lying all around my table makes the whole place such a mess, and i find it so stressful. This stupid computer is also tempting me to play, and i can spent quite some time on it. Coffee is getting me nowhere either.

How much more can i worry?
I'm so dead.
You don't even wanna help yrself.

so come on, tell me.

Wow, one more week to prelims, how prepared am i? Saw Mr Koh at yewtee mrt station and he asked me about my preparations. I couldn't answer him anything. Blah, should get a proper start today.

She just left sg, hope she have a fun time over at hk.

so come on, tell me.

Ytd's outing was quite disorganized. Only jerome, zhiliang and i was there for the earlier guys outing, and poor zhiliang who the earliest waited quite a long time for us and we can't contact him as he didn't brought his phone along. Nevertheless, the kbox was cancelled, as we missed k lunch time and there was only 3 of us. Crapped at ms to kill time, while waiting for freddy and the few girls. Had pool at bugis while waiting for the rest of the class to join us. The clarity cafe was "closed", so we had dinner at nydc in suntec. Played around the fountain and bought some donuts, and we started dispersing from there. Such a pity that Ms Tan can't join us for the "last" class outing, but it's alrite, she's just tired.

Been slping like a pig today, even though i slpt a lot while tonning ytd. Didn't know she was making something for me while i was slping, thats so cool. Thanks.

Even thought i dislike the dunearn prom night in my seconday sch days where it was held in holiday inn, i still miss it badly, coz it's currently the best prom night that i have attended. At least the grad night was held at a decent ballroom. And this year's prom night? School. What a joke. Wonder that kinda of food they are going to serve us, I have a feeling that it's just another JJ's orientation.

Faith = NIL.
Hope = NIL.
Motivation = NIL.

so come on, tell me.